Often when I reach out and love people, I look for results. I want to know that I'm making a difference, that I'm effecting people. I mean, that's not bad, but sometimes I get so caught up in looking for results that I forget to love people. As I was talking to Bethany, most of the time I view people as "outreach projects" but not friends. A lot of the time, even if I don't realize it, I say to God, "God, I work so hard on loving people but I never see any results. Please show me that I'm making a difference because I don't want to keep loving people if I don't see that I'm making a difference." It's a lie from Satan, I believe, that I'm not making a impact on people. It's also a lie that if I don't see effects on others, I'm not making a difference. Camp was a great time in the sense God gave me results. I can imagine God saying, "Alright, I'll give you results!" A couple nights into camp, one of the girls in our group wanted to talk to me. She told me how she felt like she kept on sinning and everyone had given up on her. Her Dad's in prison and her Mom is trying to get a divorce. She said I was the only one she would tell this to. I thought it was so cool that she trusted me enough to tell me that. As the week progressed, a couple other people told us things I'd label "results". Did I love those results? Absolutely! But you know what happened? I started to look down on others and became proud of what "I'd" accomplished, while it was really God. One of the songs we sang with Rush of Fools went, "Not to us, but to your name be the glory." Once I was walking around talking to my youth pastor who asked me why I wanted results so bad. He went on to explain that now he prays that God wouldn't show him results. I can understand what he meant. It's so easy to get distracted or glorify youself when you get results. I don't hate results, but I don't want to get caught up in them. It's so freeing to know that I can just be obedient to God and leave results up to God. My favorite all time quote reads, "God doesn't call us to be successful, but obedient."-Billy Graham.